A lovely day

I’ve had the most lovely day. I’ve fixed my sleep pattern so I can now fall asleep before midnight and get up early actually feeling refreshed. (I’ve been struggling to sleep before 2am and get up before 11am for a while now). I started my day reading instead of just popping on the tv. The …

Bipolar

After a manic/psychotic episode earlier this year, I fell into a deep depression which I have since found out is a Bipolar depression. When I first found this out I couldn’t accept it. I thought Bipolar and other serious mental health issues were generally inherited. Plus this is what the book I’m reading on Bipolar …

A good place to start 🤟

British Sign language: Any advice/learning material you might need can be found by looking on google (or asking people who know more about sign like moi). You can look around online for different learning material (like introductory courses such as: BSL short course) and I find this website really helpful: BSL Sign Bank (you can …

Arguing

Lately, I’ve been going through the motions quite a bit. I’ve been in psychosis for a month 😴 I think (or perhaps my whole life). This isn’t as scary as the word ‘psycho’ implies. Research the condition if you don’t believe me. Lately, I’ve been in and out of A&E, with people continuing to accuse …

Disappointed

Last night, I had to re-live my worst nightmare for the umpteenth time. I thought once was enough? 😢 In the original RTC, all of the staff at City hospital refused to treat the guy who hit us. Which is what happened last night; the people in A&E (at the QE) refused to treat me …

Suicide Awareness

Yesterday, I found out my friend from wheelchair tennis killed herself last year. Michelle - I’m so sorry you found it so hard for so long. Following the motorbike accident years ago, where a car hit you at only 30 miles an hour and left you paralysed, it was a trouble that was too hard …

Talk

If you can, try to speak to someone about what’s happening inside your head. Whenever I’ve tried to keep my worries inside, they’ve ended up either exploding out of me or forced me into a foul mood when I’ve tried to bury them instead. If you can’t make sense of what you’re thinking/feeling, try to …

C’mon guys 💪

To those of you who have very little to do, who aren’t working from home: A plan to break up your day, every day, is vital. I’ve learnt a thing or two in the past few years (of not being able to mobilise properly) that are thankfully coming in handy now. I’ve also learnt a …

Joe

Don’t worry - this isn’t going to be a soppy post about how great my new boyfriend is. But I wanted to write something about self-improvement, using Joe’s story to demonstrate. A bit of background: We didn’t get on when we first met, but over time me and Joe became very good friends. Then we …

How’s it going?

Take time to reflect on how your life is going and what small changes you could make to improve your day. Each day is made up of moments, and many people miss little tricks that could largely improve their day. This is especially important if you work a 9-5/have lots of commitments that take up …

Befuddled

My head's a little confused atm. I've had a mixture of 'I don't know how you've recovered so well' and also 'I definitely couldn't do it if I were in your shoes.' I understand that these are just expressions of awe and praise, but there seems to be something missing. I think it's to do …

Depression

For some reason, I have been a lot more ashamed of myself for feeling depressed than I did when I had my anxious breakdown. I wasn’t sure whether to publish this or keep it as a reminder for myself. I wasn’t sure anyone would benefit from reading it. Thanks to a conversation with a dear …

New Horizons

Hey guys, it's been a while. Oh wait. . . is anyone else getting deja vu? For those who aren't up to date with my posts, that's exactly how I started the last entry. Going back to uni to partake in a masters took it out of me, to say the least. I gave it …